7 – So Irritable

Day: 27

Weight: 105.5


Protruding ribs. Pain. A constant, achy pain all over. Cravings for chocolate. Cravings for steak. Cravings for milk.

My weight fluctuates a lot this week. Today I ate a pretty good amount, so I’m a little heavier than I was this morning. Didn’t give too much effort for the picture this week; I’m really not feeling it.

This’ll be a quick one, I have quite a bit to do, and honestly I’m not feeling too great.

Monday was pretty good, I had the pre-meet ritual salad from Texas Roadhouse, and Tuesday I vaulted pretty well, despite the cold. My facility coach expected 9 feet from me, but I managed to pretty much get my PR when I cleared 8’6″, and he was so proud of it. I got second place in vaulting against our rival school, and I was so happy, to have even placed against our rivals (they’re really good). The girl who won also jumped 8’6″, but because I knocked the bar off one of my jumps early on, and she didn’t, she won. It was a fair competition as always though, and I’m not upset with the outcome!


Wednesday to Friday were just “ehh”; I’m getting easily insulted by peers, even when they’re simply joking. I’m also not getting enough sleep. Wednesday night, I was up until 1am at the earliest, and awake for school at 5:30am. Thursday night, I was working on a Pre-calculus midterm project and I was up until 1:30am. Actually, I was working on it on the bed; have you ever sat on your bed, tired as can be, knowing you can’t go to sleep or you’ll fail? It’s a horrible feeling, trust me. Anyway, I was up at 5am Friday (yesterday) morning, and it was tough trying to get through the day. Last night was no better, I stayed up until 2:45am looking for and researching colleges. I had to wake up around 6:30 for my sister’s soccer game. I’m absolutely exhausted. But, on the bright side, I found my new top college choice: California University of Pennsylvania. Division II for pole vaulting, a state school, and I can study graphic design. It’s perfect.

This week is going to be demanding. Three trips to Texas Roadhouse for salad and bread, and three meets: regular dual meets on Tuesday and Thursday, and one invitational on Saturday. It’s going to be quite the eventful week and weekend. I’ll definitely let you know how it goes, obviously.

I’ll let ya get back to whatever you were doing now though, I have work to do. Until next week!


“The world is a beautiful place to be born into – if you don’t mind some people dying all the time – or maybe only starving – some of the time which isn’t half so bad – if it isn’t you.” -Lawrence Ferlinghetti


5 – Slowly Losing My Senses

Day: 14

Weight: 108.6 lbs


I’m down about 6 pounds from my starting weight. I’m still in a good mood most of the time, but I’m starting to get frustrated pretty easily now. For example, today at pole vault practice, I wasn’t getting my “drive knee” forward in the jump, and usually I don’t have that bad of a problem with it. Today, on the other hand, I was slightly sore and everything hurt just a little. I wasn’t getting my drive knee and Coach would scold me on it every time I jumped. Usually it doesn’t phase me, but today it did, and I ended practice by storming out of the vaulting facility in tears.

On Friday in English class even, I was upset with someone on a conversation that was going on around me. Now that was more on a personal level, but it shouldn’t have bothered me as much as it did.

My brain is starting to change, after only 2 weeks. On Friday at lunch, I mentioned that I think I’m hitting “starvation mode,” and this is the first step of it. I eat when I’m hungry, but it’s just not enough to fill. I want a hamburger so bad, and actually today I went and bought fries and orange HI-C from McDonald’s because I was craving french fries and orange for some reason (obviously not together, that’s gross).

I prepared a shake tonight that I’ll make in the morning, with blueberries and oats. It sounds pretty good, and i actually had all the ingredients for it (minus Chia seed). I’ll have to let you know how it tasted, tomorrow or sometime. Not sure why they call it “Sleepy Blueberry Muffin Smoothie,” I really hope it’s not going to put me to sleep. But then again, I don’t have the energy to stay awake, even if I HAVE slept for awhile.

Anyway, here’s the link:


Speaking of tomorrow, I have a date after practice, to Texas Roadhouse, where I will be eating a salad with no meat or dairy… Fun, right? Haha, I’m actually looking forward to it for a change, I can’t wait 🙂

Praying for no snow, yours always,